And so the adventure begins

Today's the day. I have hit my health rock bottom (#hrb).

Today I went to the doctor for a strange, sudden rapid heartbeat. It started over vacation, an amazing girls weekend with my friends in Florida. It couldn't be my anxiety... I was more relaxed than I had been in months. Yes, there was alcohol and food indulgence but no more than normal (ugh.) She couldn't pinpoint the cause, but I have a sneaking suspicion that the heartbeat thing is because I started taking 2 Zantac per day for my heartburn problem. Which is also new, and is related to my weight gain. And for the second time, my doctor commented on my excessive weight gain in the past year. I clocked in at 211 lbs, the heaviest I have ever been in my whole life. Even WHILE I was pregnant. But yes, duh, your focus should be on your health, not the number on the scale. Well, in addition to the heartburn I'm struggling with insomnia, fatigue, sleeping too much, my anxiety is out of control, and my depression is no longer well-managed with medications. So it's safe to say I'm not healthy. And I'm sure as hell not getting any younger! It is time for a change.

My goal is to change my lifestyle to a healthy one for three reasons:
1 - I want to a full and long life, maximizing my experiences
2 - I want to set a good example for my daughter
3 - I want to feel better - emotionally and physically

I'm writing this blog for three reasons:
1 - to keep myself accountable
2 - to document my journey, look back on my progress and stay motivated
3 - to inspire others

If you're like me you've tried everything. I'll get into that history a little later. In addition to this weird health thing, I was recently inspired by a young woman's story I saw while mindlessly scrolling through my Facebook news feed. She hadn't lost any weight but she looked totally different because she started weightlifting and burning fat, thereby gaining muscle. I followed her on Instagram and ended up going like 7 months deep into her page. Lifting weights is not something I've ever considered, so hmmm....

I'm hoping I'll find the willpower and self control to make this time different. I'm going to focus on simple, sensible techniques that are easy to follow: eating right and building lean muscle. No dieting, no crazy cardio (I fucking hate cardio.) I'll lay out my plan soon... still working on it! If I can apply "work me" to this: project #fitjounrey starts with goals first, then tactics :) And then reporting, analyzing, and optimizing. Can you tell I'm in marketing?

Me to me: please, please find the willpower and self control to become healthier so you can enjoy a long, fulfilled life with your daughter and the rest of your family. That's the ultimate goal <3